Um...there's something I'm kinda nervous about...screw it, REALLY nervous about. I don't really want to let anyone know what it is (and please don't assume anything, that really bugs me =_= ) but I'll try to be vague. I think I'm going to have to make a big decision soon and it's something that's irreversible, something I can't take back...and to be completely honest with myself, I'm a little scared. It's kind of funny because for so long now I thought it would be easy, like nothing I'd have to stress over. But now that it's here I feel so much different.

It's like seeing a roller coaster on t.v. and saying ''That looks like nothing!!'' Then getting to the theme park and pissing yourself at the first sight of it...

To make myself a little more clear, this isn't something I'm incapable of doing. Trust me, I CAN do this. And chances are it will all go completely fine. But still, I'm nervous because it's not something I ever had to even think about doing until now...like heading into a dark room or something. I just don't know what to expect, you know?

If you need an example to understand how I feel picture this, your trying to get your first job but your worried to death of what kind of impression you'll make. That's the best I could come up with, sorry if it doesn't help. =/

I know that this is really vague for those of you who don't know me as well as some others, but I'm just asking for the best advice you guys can give. I'd be really appreciated.

Btw. My mood isn't Optimism. If anything it's Nervous. Stupid thing won't let me change my mood >_>