Jason Curtis Caraway...

I'll never forget you...ever...

You were more than just my older brother. You were my role model. My Dad. My friend. My cruch. You were so much to me. More to me than you'll ever know...

I remember that whenever I felt bad, I came to you. And no matter what you said, I always felt better. I always loved talking to you, and whenever something was wrong I'd always be able to talk to you. You always had the right answer, even if I had a stupid question. I really loved you so much...

There was one night when I got into a fight with my little brother. I went outside to get away from it all. That's when you called. I almost immediatally started to cry haha. You were mad when you were on the phone, but you still talked to me and comforted me. That meant so much. I wish that I could've been strong that time. I always hated having to call you or having to talk to you because of my problems. You were always busy so it made me feel bad to have to call you ^^. But you never minded it, you always helped me with open arms...Thank you for that. Thank yo SO much. I'll try to be stronger. Just like you always were. I promise Jason...

I know that lately we haven't been talking much for the past few weeks, but I still felt so close to you. I just wish the last thing I said to you wasn't "can I borrow 10 bucks?" Haha I was always broke ^^...

I don't think you knew this, but you were really the only person in my family that I was really close to. I know we had our differences, but you were always the person I looked up to. You played like every instrument known to man xD. And you were so smart! And on top of that...you were my friend...you were always so nice to me...even when I was an idiot...

.....Why did you leave? Jason...I miss you...I love you...if you can, can you come back? Just so I can see you one last time? I understand if you can't, it's ok. But me, Mommy, and A.J. would love to see you again. We really would...

I'm sorry Jason, I can't stop crying right now...we all can't...why did you leave huh? You dummy, so many people looked up to you...we all loved you so much...

Jason...I miss you...if you can hear me crying right now, please know this. I love you. As much humanly possible, maybe more...I'll never forget you...or the things you taught me...I'll try to be stronger, and please don't worry about A.J. I'll make sure to take care of him. I won't argue with him as much, promise.

So...will I see you again? Haha what am I saying? I will, and when I do you better watch out because I'm going to punch you in the gut for leaving us! Haha look forward to it!

Hahaha.......I love you Jason....So much......please stay with me, ok?...it's hard without you....I miss you so much....my tears just won't stop....

I'll try to be strong. For A.J.....and for you....watch me, ok? I want you to be proud....

I'll never forget you....I hope that you'll read this one day....I wrote it for you....

...bye jason...I love you. With all my heart, I love you. And I always will...